pompus delights

Here I stand, six feet small. Without ever knowing about anything at all. My eye's grown wide, and my pupils are stiff dialated with the revolving shard hard out and in. My temple's seep yet I'm awake and still never knowing. My brow is risen and my retina rotates to the perfect degree of simplicity. Yet here I am again, not knowing anything at all. All vibrations from all directions come at me at this second precisely, hitting my surface harder than a sheet of ice. The pressure releases and I'm left here alone, yet not alone and knowing all along.

April 16th, 2007

Looking at life is important, especially how you do it. And now I can relate this to any religion on this planet almost. You can see, or maybe you can't, people seem to act a lot more on how they percieve the world. And how they percieve the world is related to what they think about life and what brings after life. So you see a person who is not enthusiastic about life as much as the next. They may think the world is pointless, therefore their own existence is pointless aswell, hence there is no point to anything at all so why try? This person's belief of no point may have arose from the rejection of any other religion. See a christian type believer may see the world as a paradise and that the next is a paradise aswell because that's what their beleifs tell them. And a satanic worshiper may see the world as a greedy whole and therefore their afterlife will reflect that image. It has been proven that what you believe to happen, will; using your thought process in your mind. If you are a believer in the mind than you will know that it is ruled by your subconscious. Infact, they are one. So then what you think, is. How you see life and how you see the afterlife is up to you. If you percieve the world to be treachorous, once your body dies and decomposes, your subconscious/soul/mind/whichever you like best, will rise up and live on what it has learned or percieved itself to be, treachorous. It will live in time and space, in it's own time and space. Our thoughts have always been, they cannot be created or destroyed but only change form. My conclusion in fact is that, god is us. Not religiously speaking. We are god, god is earth, earth is us, food is us. In better words, matter is god. God has always been, he cannot be created or destroyed, but only change form. Matter has always been, it cannot be created or destroyed but only change form.

Kaleida

I looked through a Kaleidoscope and saw magnificent colours and patterns. I found a quick pleasure by only observing the ever changing designs. My attention was forever kept in the vast reconstruction of images and it was after sometime I began to wonder. I asked myself, how does this work? How are these connected to the images my eyes saw? My head and mind knew better, that this was not reality. But then again, reality is what we make it. Until I had began asking various questions concerning the particular "toy", it was only known to me that these pictures were real and that it was the truth. My curiosity had me to believe otherwise after the questions led my mind to run through other possibilities.

It was at this point a friend of mine gave me his outlook on life and kaleidoscopes. As you turn it, he said, the images are always changing, yet never the same and you are hardly able to control the change. He didn't say all this exactly by the way, I just am putting what I remember and applying what else I had to say about this. This is very much like life to me. You are able to make change, though the outcomes are not always perfect or predictable. Every situation is never the same and we are always growing, changing, forming into something different. We are never the same and never will be. Life may turn one way, and we may dislike it's colours at time, or find no pleasure there for us. But the only way to find the perfect image is to keep turning and eventually all will be beautiful in the eyes of the beholder.