a ramble on god, allah, yahweh and christ

In case most of you didn't know, god, allah and yahweh are the exact same words used to describe the exact same figure but in different languages or texts. I find it especially fucking hilarious as Christians hate Muslims and vice versa yet they preach the same fucking gospel. They say muslims make crimes against women, yet I feel totally bombarded by men in Canada and in a public Catholic church, so where's the fucking justice in that? I believe organized religion should crumble or be stomped aupon and people should follow their own voice of reason. I mean didn't the voice of reason lead the people to the animals? Didn't the voice of reason tell the ape-man "don't eat that fruit, you'll die". It only makes perfect logical fucking sense.

Also I think it makes most sense that we are one with the universe or we are all with the universe and that's why it is makes sense allah is a deity. Arm-Leg-Leg-Arm-Head. SOUND LIKE MAN OR WHAT??? We are man and hold the reason of 'god' or allah or whatever you want to call our tenth dimensional awareness of the universe. So now that we are aware the next step is to understand that we are ONE with our surroundings. I still find it hard but I'm working on ciphering my reality.

It's obvious I can't get people to stop wasting their time in believing in something other than themselves. But I can sure bitch about it and act like I'm making a slight difference or I might aswell be dead and done with because this world is fucking sad and pathetic when I actually look at the details. I'd like to blame most of the world's greatest problems on Man if I can. Let's say, for instance, high gas prices and the failure of our modern economy. One word can sum that up and it could be amiguous. Bush. Obviously it's not a tree or covering of a woman's vagina so it must be a name of a Man in the United States in which other men have elected due to his slight "mannerism".

What a bu-shit move.



So now that we have covered why the world is as terrible as it is, we can move on to a much brighter topic, oh say, Christ. I perosnally use his words and teachings as much as I can to benefit my emotional and spiritual health and of those around me. I find it sometimes difficult as jesus was a man and I am a 16 year old girl, yada yada. His real name was Yehoshua of Jerusalem. I find it sad how misunderstood he really was and that he allowed himself to die, but I suppose if he didn't then I wouldn't be having the thoughts I have now. Which leads me to believe also that everything does happen for particular reasoning and that this moment has always been meant to happen. I also find the Roman Catholic Church a huge joke as the Romans were the crucifiers of Yehoshua. HMMMMM.


So if you don't believe IN christ than I cannot do much but say okay and be on my way.

By the way, the term christ merely means one of enlightenment or illumination or of light, and for those who don't understand the connection between light and love, you may always be wandering in the dark alone.

Now that I've released some emotion thearoputically I guess it's time for a personal update.

- still really hooked on Spinal Meninjitus by Ween
- Gave my hermits their first bath today
- hung out with Psi last night
- had a nightmare about my mother's death
- getting this cast off tomorrow
- fucking pumped for Neil Young
- finished my Stalin outline

peas n luff~

But then, where is home?

In a fraudulent world,
where parasites bring hurt unto themselves,
dwells,
nuclear families,
fulminating with chaotic dramas.

To what have we lost our own sense of family?
Our own sense of love?
Abolished by what has given us life and support,
This place in which man has mistook;
Forgetful, of, say, his own bloody birth.

Poor, dear, old Mother Earth,
If only one might see,
Just clear, precisely.

Then atlast can we be shed of this materialistic ego.
And be freed to a new light, into the unknown.
But then, where is home?

The being

I am love
I am patience
I am truth
I am kind
I am determined
I am forgiving
I am faithful
I am thanksgiving
I am grace
I am eternal

Transition

I feel I have come to know all that I have come here for. Is it odd to accept Death now without wishing it? I have lived, and I have learnt, as I haved changed. Am I dying because of the course I knew I would take? Death comes upon every course, as does life. I feel the need to let go closing in, and I feel acceptant towards this release, so that I might give birth to something greater inside of myself. I want to be reborn into a being in which I may affect the world on a greater level. Mother Nature's wrasp is what I feel towards the human race. A deep yearning to bring balance about in the universe. Am I dreaming? Where do these thoughts emerge from? The answer lies within us. For we are all connected on the subtle levels of vibrations. This is where our conscious emerges; awareness of energy itself. We are this 10th dimension within the 3rd dimension of matter. Humans are matter, while awareness is conscious or Tenth dimension. As of lately I depict my death as my spinal cord puncturing my brain. That's how it has been feeling. The state I have been living in feels rationally irrational. Are we merely probable chance? The answer is yes. So if I die, and you are greiving, know that I will return to you, as you all have returned to me. The world we are living in is about a dream, we all once had. When I die I know there will be no interdimensional hell to experience, for I am already there and have found heaven within it. Humans are systems within themselves, for if you are conscious you will know this. Death is an illusion of physical pain that we all must experience, though it is not final in your awareness. For when you die, do not let go of yourself, but merely let go of whats holding you back ; pain. Become free in yourself and experience the exhilarating electricity of awareness. Feel one with your surroundings.